guilt
Is this a Jewish thing? a woman thing? a mom thing?
I am wracked with guilt these days, and I know I can't fix everything, but I'd love to know how to get past this.
Here's what I'm guilty about this week:
- being away from Max all day
- making Dylan go to childcare even though she wants to be with me
- making Max sleep in his crib for a few hours each night
- going to a food conference at the end of March and leaving Dylan and/or Max
- that my in-laws are so upset about this separation
- that I live so far from my parents
- that I don't spend enough time writing
- that I don't spend enough time cleaning
- that I don't work hard enough when I'm at work
- that I let Dylan eat too much junk food
- that my kids are going to be screwed up because their parents aren't together
- that I snipe at Dylan because I'm cranky all the time
- being happy when both kids are in bed and I have time to myself
- that I don't pay enough attention to my dog
- that I don't call my grandmas frequently enough
